“But why chemo,” you may ask? Aren’t you cancer free? Aren’t you cured?
The problem with pancreatic cancer is there are no really good tests to find it. We know from my Whipple surgery all the identifiable cancer is gone. Blood markers often seen in those with pancreatic cancer are in the safe zone too.
Are there microcells in the process of forming? Who knows? That’s why there’s chemo and radiation. We are taking no chances. It must be effective because Blue Shield has approved every step in the process.
The problem with chemo is it’s an indiscriminate killer of cells. We’re zapping good along with bad. The assumption is the good will grow back.
The whole process is slow-motion stressful. I’ve slept as much as twenty hours on Saturday after a Thursday infusion. Until Saturday the chemo had no physical effect at all.
No part of my cancer treatment has been beyond my ability. It’s the cumulative effect of all the little pain, inconvenience and indignities that has begun to get to me.
This is the last scheduled treatment, six chemo sessions in eight weeks. Enough already.