Last month I wrote about hearing from my old friend Dave Kulka. He was Dave Kulka, now he’s David. That happens when you grow up I suppose.
I wonder why I haven’t become Geoffrey?
Dave and I have spoken on the phone a few times since then. Recently, he came across some letters I sent to him from the late sixties to the mid seventies. Now, he’s sent them back to me.
They came yesterday before work, but I have been scared to read them. Isn’t that weird? I wasn’t sure what I would find – what I had said – what I was like. I’ve always been good at avoidance in situations like this. A few minutes ago, I finally picked them up and began to read.
Assuredly, I am not the same as I was then. That is not good nor bad, just fact.
Now that I’ve peeked, here’s what I know. I was very free in what I said. I talked politics, social issues, personal stuff. Then, as now, I wasn’t scared to show myself warts and all. These letters talk about success and failure.
It’s a shame there were no spell checkers or grammar checkers back then because I was in desperate need of both! Most letters were punched out on an old Royal manual typewriter. Once you typed a letter, it was stuck on the page, difficult to remove.
Was there Correctype in 1968? Not in my house.
I’m going to upload a small piece of one of the letters just for a little feel of the times. It was sent two days before my 18th birthday. The header said what was foremost in my mind: In two days I’d be registering for the draft! In 1968, the prospect of Vietnam petrified me. Getting a draft card was the first step in the process. It didn’t mean I’d get drafted – only that I could.
It is interesting to see me refer to my mother from a teenager’s perspective. I hope she can see it in her heart to forgive me for the kind of kid I was… though the letter implies she read this as it was being written. It is also interesting to look at how I was nonchalantly making plans to fly across country, my first time away from home, to meet someone I didn’t know in a city I’d never been to!
Over the next few days I’ll look for a few more snippets to post. However, I’m not sure that there is a letter that doesn’t have at least one embarrassing passage I won’t put on the web. There are warts and then there are warts. I’m no longer 18.